a watered down conception of the fustrastion within my life.

i come home at 4.30

I preheat the oven.

I chop and marinade the vegetables

I prepare the steaks and sausages

I preheat the oven to 180

I put the spinach and cheese chicken roll in the makeshift-bbq-turned-oven.

And then it begins.

6.30 my mother walks into the backyard. She opens my perfectly heated makeshift-bbq-turned-oven, and while releasing all the heat i've perfectly sealed in, she murmurs various things.

"why'd u buy this, its so expensive"
"aww how come u used this tin? its still new (yea, 10 years new)"
"Are you sure its gonna cook like this? You need to keep it covered"

just to name a few

Then i almost snap at her and say "i did this so u didn't hafta cook tonight and your still here messing around" - the kitchen is my mothers territory. I dare enter it, and cook upon it, but she'll try to shoot down anyone who enters. But this was the BBQ. My BBQ, i've suffered many smoke burns and cinged hairs form it. I'm a verteran of the BBQ.

Then i try to get all the vegetables roasted in 30min, in a 80degree open hood "oven"

Then i take everything inside. within the first 30seconds of eating, my mum says ,

"we shud have some rice and bread incase theres not enough to eat."

translation: "i need some bread so i don't go hungry tonight, since i can't eat anthing anyone else makes."

I've cooked over 6kg of meat here. theres even another 3kg worth of vegetables.

Then, immediately after that, my dad sniffs the chicken.

"its got no flavour. wheres the soy sauce"

then he prods my lamb forequarters

"why did we have to get this cut of meat" (as if he knows the difference)"

so while he's there drowning his plate in soysauce, i have the best meal i've had in weeks. my sister thinks so too, and the other one, so eats suasages with her hands, and my sisters boyfriend, who for some reason, i think he hates meat, since he aint touching his plate all that much - or he hates it.

Either way, 6kg meat is nearly gone..

I pack up the table, and my sister smiles to me

"I'm so full, i can't remember when i ate that good"