THIS LITTLE PIGGY: - its name is McDull.

In the words of Kozo of lovehkfilm, - "he has the IQ of a turnip."

Thus, it makes "this little piggy", actually "me" - a pig with the IQ of a turnip - i guess thats a pretty accurate description of me.

Its such a small world. I found it - After i've been trying so hard not to ask for it.. I finally stumbled upon it, before this point, i exhausted every resource I had to "accidently stumble across it".
Now I regret it.

You lied to me Ken~ It wasn't just one of them about me, and it wasn't just nothing.

She was actually pouring her heart out - multiple times, and hordes of other times i'll never know about. She actually cared, she actually had emotions - and feelings and all about ME! TURNIP IQ PIG!

At least McDull is cute- and if he made a complete ass of himself, then he could still apologise to her, because she would still want to see him. But no, not me - Perhaps amidst all the times I "sulked" (in her words, but i would rather call it "pining") I went too far. -like I do every time.

But this time. I actually feel sad, and actually regret it. Now I feel so stupid. I hated her for leaving me alone, and "lying to me". But infact.. I was the one that left her alone.. and she never did actually lie. She told the truth. The only lies were to myself.

Oh god. I really hope "someone" sees this one day. The last time we talked, I lost control, and I think really really drove her away for good. "The scientist" - that was for you.. "oh lets go back to the start...".

I hated you for not seeing things like that either. But i was equally blind.

Oh god. I'm going to get my balls ripped off for writing this.

I'm sorry... All i wanted was for you to acknowledge me - i never saw that. you just HAD to hide it in your blog. I never really knew till now. And maybe that makes it all too late. Or maybe you never wanted me to know. Tell me why. WHY?!